I feel like literal shit.

I want to sleep, but that's become an impossible task. I took the wrong medication yesterday, and that really messed me up. I want to puke, but I can't hardly move enough to do that. Randomly, I'll have these mad shaking attacks and it's crazy. Imagine me driving two hours to my big sister's like this, with my little sister in the car. God. That was crazy.

Cause you feed me fables from your hand

With violent words and empty threats

And it's sick that all these battles

Are what keeps me satisfied

On top of that, I'm still having my random tears over "him". I don't know. He's what I've had for 7 months, and now he's just gone. I feel empty. I feel numb. The pain is gone, for now. It's just nothing. I can't eat, I can't sleep, I can't even focus on anything I do anymore. I know it's going to bug the hell outta my friends when I see them. God damn. Why is life always so difficult for me? Why couldn't it just have been a normal relationship instead of constant fighting?

Sometimes a man gets carried away,
When he feels like he should be having his fun
Much too blind to see the damage he's done
Sometimes a man must awake to find that, really,
He has no-one...

So I'll wait for you... And I'll burn
Will I ever see your sweet return?
Oh, will I ever learn?
Oh, Lover, you should've come over
Cause it's not too late.

Tell me, when are you going to realize that I can't live without you?

Can you just come back.? Please..