Starting Over.

So for the past few months, I've been slipping in and out of this very serious depression. The reasons, are mostly a part of my past. Sometimes they are things from my present. If things do not fix with them, they will be removed from my future. I'm not going to let myself hurt anymore. I've had people point out how much I was falling, on multiple occasions. I've been at my lowest. Which also, has it's upsides. It's showed me who will be there when I do need a shoulder to lean on. However, for now, I refuse to let myself be hurt again. Time after time, I've fallen back down. I keep wanting people to pick me back up, without really doing anything myself. Well, starting now things are going to change.

 For one, I'm never going to get back to that low of a depression. I can't take all of that pain, it was unbearable. Next, I'm going to quit relying on others to help me be happy. “The only person you are destined to become is the person you decide to be.” Basically, I have to make myself happy. If I'm going to get anywhere at all. Another thing, I've got to remove the people in my life that causes me problems. No matter how painful that may be. So, whenever I believe things are getting out of hand, you'll be gone. Simple as that. No objections, no fighting, no crying. I can't deal with any of that anymore, if this "happy" thing is going to happen. Finally, I'm not going to keep my past in the present. That's the past, this is the present. If I make myself happy now, it'll follow me to the future.

I'm hoping all of this works out. I'm coming back to my old ways. No more tears, pain, or worrying. I'm back to the old me. I'm sure you'll all love me so much more this way.