Stressed..

Ever since I deleted all of my blogs, I've supposed to be more happy. I'm supposed to be trying hard. Don't get me wrong, I have been trying. I've been ignoring bull shit and keeping a smile, but today it ain't working. I wish I would have kept my blog posts. I want to look back and see everything me and Christian went through.

I miss him.

I want him.

This is crazy.

I've never felt this much pain over one person.