It hurts so bad..

Today, I found out that the boy I loved with all of my heart has went back to someone else. I cried for 2 hours. I keep crying. I feel like my heart has been broken all over again. I know I dated someone after him, but I also broke up with that person because I still wasn't over him.. and he was telling me he still loved me at the time.. It hurts so bad. All I feel is pain. Jansen came over and held me while I cried for so long, and others are trying to tell me that it's okay. I can't help it though, there words are just words. That doesn't fix my pain. I have people trying to tell me just to stop crying that it's not worth the tears. I agree, it's not. I can't help it. The one person that actually made me feel like I was worth something, honestly made me feel that way, is gone. Now that he's gone back to her, the realization of loosing him has sunk in. It's hell. He will never be mine again. I will never hear him tell me he loves me again. He's hers, and he loves her. Just typing that kills me. Just thinking about it kills me even more. Just telling people why I'm crying, murders me completely. I don't think he'll ever understand just what he's put me through.
Just to hear him say I love you, i'd die for.
It may have been only 7-8 months, but I went through so much with him.
He helped me through so much.
I loved him, so god damn much.
& it hurts.
It really really hurts.